So yesterday my mate who normally watches Rosie when I do outcalls totally bailed last minute. Just flat out texted me 30 minutes before her usual time like 'sorry cant watch her'. Which like. Cool. Cool cool cool.
Childcare for sex work is this constant nightmare puzzle. Im lucky my mum helps sometimes but shes not always available and doesnt really know the full details of what I do. Which is fine. I dont need her judging me more than she already does.
The reality is I need money and I need consistent income and this job lets me do that way better than some minimum wage shop gig where id be making less and still need childcare. So when the babysitter cancels its not just an inconvenience. Its potentially lost money. Lost rent. Lost nappies. Lost food.
Im not looking for sympathy. Im just saying this is how it goes. Single mum. Sex work. Constant juggling. Sometimes the plan falls apart and you just have to remake the plan right that second. Which is exactly what I did yesterday. Called in a favour. Shifted some appointments. Made it work.
Rosie doesnt know any of this. Shes 18 months and just wants her snacks and Peppa Pig. Thank god for that.